colossal time
heya to you faithful few who still check this dealio!
I guess since i fell into the dark hole of mass mailing people, this whole blogging thing has been pretty harsh. I thought to myself though, "self, what WILL you do when your life becomes dull and boring and people don't want to get mass e-mails from you anymore? How will you go back to informing them of the things that are going on and filling your mind?"
since it would be cruel and unusual punishment to put people through mass mailing them my thoughts, I figured I'd post them on the big wide world out there and allow you to still read them... but actually, I'm still mass mailing, so if you want to be on that list, let me know!
Otherwise, life continues in a raging torrent of climbing, paddling, biking, walking, wishing I could do things that I'm weak in, and thinking how great it would honestly be to be fit.
today i was so tired that for the first time in a long time, I sat at a table and heard three different accents speaking and couldn't understand a word being said to me! It was a great feeling of satisfaction when Christy came and visited me from Colorado and I had to translate so many things for her that I can easily understand but she couldn't!
I also drove past the Glenfarclas whiskey distillery today - apparantly it's good whiskey.
Really, I'm learning a lot about finding my worth and value, not in what I DO and what I can ACHIEVE, but rather in God. The One who made me and has been excited about who I am ever since the word "go" and wants nothing more than for me just to love Him the way He loves me! That's a lot to want... but it's something I think I would give with all my heart if I can... and so I will continue.
I talked about love with a guy on the way here... he described it as volunatary dependancy to me. I've never really thought about it that way before. He said he saw the first attraction as often being the filling of your own need (hence the reason it can be so dangerous when you're just in a relationship for yourself)... but that LOVE - the kind that lasts and sticks for a lifetime - happens when you CHOOSE to be vulnerable and to depend on someone else.
I don't know that that's the whole story... or that's what it all is... but if we think about God as love (which I think is a basic fact of Christianity and life) and think about how much He has chosen to be vulnerable... baring His heart to us, allowing us to be in a relationship with Him, wanting our love so desperately that he honestly would die just to make it POSSIBLE not to mention giving us the choice and risking rejection.
hmmm.
well, it was just a thought or two on my mind lately.
shalom.
I guess since i fell into the dark hole of mass mailing people, this whole blogging thing has been pretty harsh. I thought to myself though, "self, what WILL you do when your life becomes dull and boring and people don't want to get mass e-mails from you anymore? How will you go back to informing them of the things that are going on and filling your mind?"
since it would be cruel and unusual punishment to put people through mass mailing them my thoughts, I figured I'd post them on the big wide world out there and allow you to still read them... but actually, I'm still mass mailing, so if you want to be on that list, let me know!
Otherwise, life continues in a raging torrent of climbing, paddling, biking, walking, wishing I could do things that I'm weak in, and thinking how great it would honestly be to be fit.
today i was so tired that for the first time in a long time, I sat at a table and heard three different accents speaking and couldn't understand a word being said to me! It was a great feeling of satisfaction when Christy came and visited me from Colorado and I had to translate so many things for her that I can easily understand but she couldn't!
I also drove past the Glenfarclas whiskey distillery today - apparantly it's good whiskey.
Really, I'm learning a lot about finding my worth and value, not in what I DO and what I can ACHIEVE, but rather in God. The One who made me and has been excited about who I am ever since the word "go" and wants nothing more than for me just to love Him the way He loves me! That's a lot to want... but it's something I think I would give with all my heart if I can... and so I will continue.
I talked about love with a guy on the way here... he described it as volunatary dependancy to me. I've never really thought about it that way before. He said he saw the first attraction as often being the filling of your own need (hence the reason it can be so dangerous when you're just in a relationship for yourself)... but that LOVE - the kind that lasts and sticks for a lifetime - happens when you CHOOSE to be vulnerable and to depend on someone else.
I don't know that that's the whole story... or that's what it all is... but if we think about God as love (which I think is a basic fact of Christianity and life) and think about how much He has chosen to be vulnerable... baring His heart to us, allowing us to be in a relationship with Him, wanting our love so desperately that he honestly would die just to make it POSSIBLE not to mention giving us the choice and risking rejection.
hmmm.
well, it was just a thought or two on my mind lately.
shalom.
posted by kukkiriza at 11:50 AM
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