Self.

ok, the last was an update on my life... here's a thought...

are you willing to be wrong?
do you love people more than you love your stuff/time?

I'm thinking a lot these days about the line between sacrifice and reality - how much should I work at deep relationships? For us who are Christians, the Bible's pretty clear about the deep fellowship of the Holy Spirit, if I've died to myself, shouldn't I be ready and willing to sacrifice my "independant rights" to meet you where you're at and to really love you?

something I've been thinking on...

wondered where I'm at?

So there I was... back in the city. It's like my life is a crazy wild hurricane, but it's good too. Thoughts screaming around my head - I was out at our Training Centre for FOCUS - it's a thing we do to help the one-year teams debrief their time overseas and think about their futures... and while I was there, God really took a huge wet fish and gave me a couple of slaps.

He let me know, beyond the shadow of a doubt, that I need to commit all that I am and all that I think and all of my future to Him. I had let things hinder me and affect my thinking and planning that were stressing me out and holding me back from living freely - funny how girls can invest so much in a guy who hasn't even shown any interest and they can allow a guy to influence them for no reason except a dim hope of his approval - when his approval isn't even what they need. For now, I am learning to let go of all of those plans and dreams and work at focusing my mind on Christ and running in that freedom and it is so sweet.
I got the chance to speak at a church last Sunday... I was really nervous and unsure about "bringing the message" and yet, I prayed a lot (and so did a lot of my friends) and it went really well. I'm humbled by what God chooses to do through me sometimes.

ANd so now I'm sitting here at my computer watching the rain fall and loving the sweet cloudy wetness... there are days when I miss the UK more than ever. I got told today that I phrased a sentance VERY Irish - which is funny b/c I don't think about it... I guess I just do it. I like British slang. Also, I found out that I can bum wireless internet off of someone in my neighbourhood and so that was a bonus! And overall, I'm just excited about it finally turning green here and me being able to live each day excited about what it holds!!!!
I'm learning to appreciate the experiences I've been having that have challenged me and hurt me so that I can teach others and understand where they're at.

And That's where I'm at these days.